Me, Myself and I..

If there's any one word to describe the past week, I'd say it was tiring. The football competitions are now over and I'm suffering from the after effects of straining myself a little too much. I guess that my fitness level has somewhat dropped significantly. Anyway, we lost, won and drew one match. Of course, we didnt' win, but it was really fun.
Saturday evening was a fun filled night. They call it "six form entertains". Basically, its pretty much like a small show where the six formers are called to entertain the rest of the school. I must say that its been a delightful job to do. We did many musical performances and many sketches. I myself joined the choral speaking group and we presented "little red riding hood" by Roald Dahl. But I also got the opportunity to be on stage just before every presentation. No, I wasn't the master of ceremony, I held a much more important role. I was the stage crew. Though we handle the more petty aspects of making sure the night was great, I think that we deserve just as much as everyone else. Plus, if it wasn't for the stage crew, we'd never had such a succesful evening.
This week:

• Athletics training is will be starting soon. Its been a long time since I last competed in an athletcis meet. Hopefully my limbs will be able to keep up with my desire to run. I'll have to remember not to stuff myself during the new year hols.
• The Chinese New Year hols are just round the corner. I can't believe that I'll be away from school for a week. How then will I live without my books and all the homework? I'll surely be missing school. (Yeah right)
• My brother is finally out of the hospital. He's been having dengue for the past week. Hopefully he'll have a speedy recovery.

That's all for now. without wax-Spilinmy

Me, Myself and I..

I feel life coming back to my body. It feels so liberating to be under no pressure now that the dinner that was to be organized is already over. I must say that it turned out pretty well despite the fact that it was a little rushed. People were happy, they got what they wanted, so I'm happy. Which of course is a good thing. Now I can focus more on my studies.
I forgot to mention that the inter house football has already started. I must say that its a miserable start for my house in particular. We lost 2-0 in the first game. Both goals were give aways and on my part, I feel really frustrated that we didn't play well as a team. But its all over, we lost one game and we only have another 2 games left. The next game will be played today. Hopefully, we'll play a much better game.
I just sat for my internal chemistry and physics examinations. It wasn't as tough as I thought it would be. Maybe I was just prepared.
This week:

• The inter house football competitions will last till the end of this week. Hope for the best results.
• I'll be having examinations soon. I'm really studying hard at the moment.
• The chinese new year hols are coming soon. I really look forward to it. I need some time to chill out. =)

The Change you want to see..?

Its a question I ask myself again and again. I yearn to see many things change in my life; how I relate to people, how I should live my life..etc. More than that, I desrire to see change in the world. I long to see people change their ethos. I long to see all the suffering in this world dissapear. However, its just overwhelming. I desire so much but I can do only so little. There's just so much to change in this world that at times, I wonder if it is worth all the time and effort. We sow many seeds, but reap little.
I've always imagined if all the kings and all the leaders would come to a perfect understanding with each other. We'd reach a social equilibrium and we'll be living in utopia. If this were to happen, the world will see the change that is so direly needed. Unfortuantely, this will never happen. We're all different, and at one point or another, we will think differently.
I've come to realise that the world won't be changing anytime soon. The world is still in a mess as it has always been. Never did I sleep knowing that tomorrow will be a better day neither did I wake to find the world a better place. With all these around us, we wonder if there is any solution to the problem we face. We just can't wait for a saviour to save us from the wrath that readily awaits us.
Gandhi once said "Be the change you want to see in the world." I couldn't agree with him better. There are some things that others just can't do for us. That includes changing ourselves. When Dr. Mahathir gave his last speech after serving Malaysia for 2 decades, he apologized for not being able to change the ehtos of the nation. Change is a lengthy and tough process . Unless we take the initiative to start now, we'll never start at all.
Far in my mind, I can only imagine how the world would be like when we've finally found peace. There'd be no fighting and no war. There'd be less suffering. The world would be so much more a better place than it is now. Meanwhile, there is still so much for us to work at to make things happen.

"I am only one; but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something."

-Helen Keller-

Me, myself and I...

Coming back to college wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. The first week was just a little less intense than hell itself. Maybe I'm just too worked out with petty things, but I would safely say that my I'm nearing my limit of sanity. Just a little more and I'll go bazookas.
Currently I'm in the organizing comittee for a dinner that is to be organized next week. But the oragnizing comittee doesn't look pretty much like it is supposed to be. I just can't come to fathom how exactly the dinner is supposed to be organized when half of the committee won't be at the dinner itself. I'm incharge of keeping the audience busy when the meal starts till the end- the prize giving ceremony. The job is like living hell. (how do you suppose to keep the audience entertained for an hour and a half?)
I don't know what'll help, but complaining simply won't solve all the problems; complaining won't do me any justice. Trying to work out things a little by a little won't work either, because time is against me. Rather, I have to work things out a lot by a lot. Sigh...
This week:

• I'm still organizing the dinner. Hopefully, we'll come up with some graet idea that'll keep all parties happy and content.
• I'm also involved (not directly) in a Valentines Day social meet. But its adding to the already heavy load that I bear.
• The tonnes of studying is slowly killing me. I am already entertaining thoughts of dropping one subject. The homework is fine, but coping with the new ideas and new priciples are hard. My rusty brain isn't helping.
• There will be a pool party this weekend for all the new students. (I still fall into that category) and there is a presentation to be done by all the groups. My group is doing a traditional dance. And practice shall commence soon.
• I'll be trying to keep my composure eventhough everything around me is like living hell.

That'll be all for now, in the mean time, I'll try to keep my sanity.

New year's resolutions..

New year's resolutions are usually made at the start of the new year and is an ordinance to last for the year to come. I didn't make any resolutions till 4 days ago (the 3rd of january). That means that I'm late. In fact 3 days late. But I guess that it doesn't matter much when you choose to start, rather what matters most is in fact, keeping the resolutions you make.
I would think its safe to say that many of us look forward to the new year. We always do. We always look to the future, we plan, we execute and we reap the harvest. This year will see us living a better life, having a brighter future and ultimately more contentment. Ironically, the start of this new year has seen mourning throughout many countries in the world. People in countries such as Indonesia (acheh in particular) and Sri Lanka have not much to look forward to this year. In a way, everything that has been happening has somehow infleunced my descision making about my resolutions for this year.
I've decided that my theme for this year is "to be contemplative". Its always easy to live for the moment, and to enjoy everything life has to offer you. In fact, not only is it easy, it is really fun. But when we choose to be so indulgent, so hedonistic , we lose ourselves. Sometimes we even lose our rational. It doesn't mean that I'll be turning a monk, rather, I'll be exploring the other side that life has to offer. ( I'll still indulge, just a little less =) )
I don't want to do things just for the sake of doing it, I want to know the reasons why I do it. I want to know why things happen the way things happen. I want to understand feelings and emotions. I want to understand why people react in certain ways.
Its always interesting to see things under new light; to understand things the way others do i.e. why some people have such a beautiful outlook towards life and why some of us don't.
In a nutshell, I'm going to try to use my brain a little more this year. Just thinking things out - the normal things that we often overlook. Possilby then, I'll grow to be a wiser me.

Me, Myself and I..

Its been a mighty 2 weeks since I last blogged. Undeniably, I have been very busy, especially with Christmas and the hike up Mount. Korbu. Though it isn't good enough a reason not to blog, its pretty much human nature to be a tad lazy when you're hooked up with so much to do.
The hike up Mount Korbu this time proved to be succesful eventhough the initial hike up seemed bleak. I shall not explain what happened; maybe some other time. We left for Mount korbu on the 26th and reached back home on the 30th. It was really tiring, yet it was great fun. I would certainly like to do it again. (Maybe make it an annual event or something )
This week:

• I shall have to start studying. College starts in about 10 days.
• I need to pack up my belongings and get my mind ready to adapt to hostel life once more. As I said earlier, college starts in about 10 days.
• I had planned to go to Cameron Highlands with some friends on the 2nd. However, I might not be going anymore. Things are a little too rushed.

I can't seem to think about anything else at the moment. I guess thats how my week shall look like- studying and preparing for college. Drats.