New year's resolutions..

New year's resolutions are usually made at the start of the new year and is an ordinance to last for the year to come. I didn't make any resolutions till 4 days ago (the 3rd of january). That means that I'm late. In fact 3 days late. But I guess that it doesn't matter much when you choose to start, rather what matters most is in fact, keeping the resolutions you make.
I would think its safe to say that many of us look forward to the new year. We always do. We always look to the future, we plan, we execute and we reap the harvest. This year will see us living a better life, having a brighter future and ultimately more contentment. Ironically, the start of this new year has seen mourning throughout many countries in the world. People in countries such as Indonesia (acheh in particular) and Sri Lanka have not much to look forward to this year. In a way, everything that has been happening has somehow infleunced my descision making about my resolutions for this year.
I've decided that my theme for this year is "to be contemplative". Its always easy to live for the moment, and to enjoy everything life has to offer you. In fact, not only is it easy, it is really fun. But when we choose to be so indulgent, so hedonistic , we lose ourselves. Sometimes we even lose our rational. It doesn't mean that I'll be turning a monk, rather, I'll be exploring the other side that life has to offer. ( I'll still indulge, just a little less =) )
I don't want to do things just for the sake of doing it, I want to know the reasons why I do it. I want to know why things happen the way things happen. I want to understand feelings and emotions. I want to understand why people react in certain ways.
Its always interesting to see things under new light; to understand things the way others do i.e. why some people have such a beautiful outlook towards life and why some of us don't.
In a nutshell, I'm going to try to use my brain a little more this year. Just thinking things out - the normal things that we often overlook. Possilby then, I'll grow to be a wiser me.