Me, Myself and I..

Its been quite a while since the last publication of "Me, Myself and I". Not that nothing has been happening around me lately, its just that I haven't found time to compile my thoughts to publish one entry of "Me, Myself and I". Anyway, here goes..
I thought that after a certain age, people mature and leave behind them their childish ways and feelings. Apparently not. I thought that I've matured beyond the point where I'm immune to the teasing of friends (no, not derogratory gossip , teasing as in childish teasing..) but I've just discovered that I'm not. For the past few days, some people has been teasing me about a girl in my class. Somehow, I've found it really disturbing and embarrasing. Maybe because I have more respect for her than I have for myself. I guess that I'm not as mature as I thought I would be. Maybe I'm immature. But I take pleasure in being more mature than my other friends who tease me.

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I'm leaving to Gunung Tahan tonight. My bus leaves at 9:00. The expedition was oragnized by a friend form my college. If everything goes as planned, we'll be reaching tonight and the hike shall start tomorrow. That's IF everything goes according to plan. Its only natural that everything that we plan should happen, but at times, we are caught unaware when the unnatural happens. I've just been entertaining ideas for the past 30 minutes if this would be the last time I see home. Freaky? Yeah..
Should anyhting happen to me, may everyone that I've wronged in any way forgive me. May I leave with everyone good memories and not memories filled with grudge and hatred. More than ever, may the Good Lord forgive me for all my shortcomings.
Thinking about this makes me realise that I'm not ready to leave this wonderful earth. Not now. I've so much more to accomplish. I have yet to buy a car, a hom, climb the corporate ladder and get a family. Then again, is this what I'm really seeking for? Or is this something that this world has brought me to believe. When will I be ready to leave this earth? When I've maked my way all to the top? Will I be ever ready? Wow... I am overwhelmed. I'm probably searching for the wrong things all this while.

I've not much time till I leave for Gunung tahan.. Approximately 1 hour and 40 minutes. Please pray for me.